Sunday, November 29, 2009

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Friday, November 20, 2009

There are a lot of things that I regret and almost in all occasion i managed to put the blame on someone else my nanay specially. I attended public school and i really feel bad about that i know that i must have been better off had i been to private school. I always feel bad about my looks and i blame that on her too because its her genes im carrying. I hate the fact that were not rich, im thinking that it was her fault after all.......
Like i said i have a lot of things to feel sorry about but now that shes gone im even sorrier because i lost the only person who ever loved me the way she does. Now i regret that i never thank her for sending me through college though she cant afford it, Im sorry that i never invited her to Baguio when i had the chance, i regret that i never asked her to get regular check up, she may still be alive had we detected the cancer early. I detest my self that i never hug her when i had the chance that i turn her down whenever she ask me to massage her back. I didnt know... I didnt know that despite having a perfect mom i ended up being the worse son she could ever get. I love you nanay no one ever read this blog and everything that is written here is for you, i hope that you are as proud of me because i am very proud of you i can never show you that now but in my heart i know that even if i can afford to buy everything that i want i will never be as happy when you were on my side.